Faithful in December

December is when it happened
It's when my world came down crashing
It is when the persistent pain
came and decided to stay
December is when she died
and cold and frost took over
It is when white covers all the colors
and lights are used to bring back joy

December is when I cried for hours
and sat in utter silence
It's when I was at a loss for words
and felt completely hopeless
But now it is April
when there is life and fresh air and colors
And April is when I realized
That You were still faithful
in December.

You let the lights
bring back the joy
and You're the One who
made the snow sparkle
You were there for me
when I sat in utter silence
And You held me
when I felt all alone

even in December

Annie

She is a six-year-old bundle of joy
and is absolutely precious
she has blonde hair, blue eyes, and
a beautiful toothless grin
she has a laugh to make every
song bird jealous
and a personality
that really could melt a heart of
stone.
she has the touch of an angel
and a peace about her that could
calm any storm and end any war
She has the wisdom of a monarch
and the sensibility of one well beyond
her years.
She also has cancer
and a story that could bring
a calloused man to tears
She has scars from sixteen surgeries
and enough pain-filled moments
to literally fill books
Her life will never be normal
and her body will never be healed
she will never get those organs back
nor the years where she should have
been a small child.
It seems that life has given her
a death sentence,
a punishment for being almost perfect
But God is still holding her fragile life
And she knows that He
is not finished with her yet
He gave her the boldness of a warrior
and the courage of a martyr
and He won't leave her side
as she now faces the biggest struggle
of her life
a journey that will
give her another opportunity
to be every doctors'
favorite patient.

You Who Call me Beautiful

That day I felt worthless
That day I felt used
That day I felt ugly
Knowing all this was untrue
I felt despised, manipulated
unloved
I heard the lies encircling
my head
And I almost let him win
that battle
I almost gave him a
victory

But then I heart Your Voice
You who call me Beautiful
You, the definition of Beauty
Who created me in Your image
You broke through the lies
lies, wrapped about my heart
like old cast iron chains
With a still small voice
saying "I know your beauty
because I created it
I gave it to you
and don't give anyone
the power
to take it away."
Now I know my beauty
because He made me that way
and I strive to reflect His image
And I won't let anyone
take that away.

How Jesus Says I Love You

How Jesus says I love you
is good enough for me
how he wore that crown of thorns
and went to Calvary
how he created the sunset
and beauty for my eyes to see
how he shows me my path
and holds me steadily
how he gave me friends to love
and my precious family
that's how Jesus says I love you
and it's good enough for me

Is it wrong?

I want to hear you
say I love you
I don't want to
just assume
I want to see it
in your eyes
And feel it
through your skin
I want to
know for sure
I want to
feel secure
I want to feel free
to say I love you in return