Cobena

How I miss
walking through the streets
of Cobena

smelling the sheep
and the dust
from the roads

getting lost amongst
the labyrinth
of tiny streets

vividly painted
fence posts and metal
playgrounds

so much for
my eyes
to feast on

so much to
keep safely locked
in my memory

yes, the earth
is far too large
for a small budget

Lies

I hate you
I am completely whole and perfect
I understand all I hear
I never feel small or alone
I love to be forgotten
I always take care of myself
I always indulge in beautiful things
I never fear evil
and I never lie

I am the magical blue whale

I am the magical blue whale
I don't eat small krill
I eat dreams and wishes
I don't wear leathery skin
I wear hope forgotten
and left floating
I don't fear anything
for I am bigger
than everything
But there is no need
to fear me
Ask me for a ride
and float through
your old hopes
upon your dreams and wishes
I am the magical blue whale

promise me please

Make me a promise,
and I'll never ask for more
Remember this truth
of which I'm very sure
You may believe that you're not brave
which is very far from true
And you are stronger that you seem
Your strength indeed shows through
I have noticed you
And I know you doubt your intellect
Sweetheart, do that no more
You are smarter than you think
You will change the world
Everything I've said
I believe with all my heart
My dearest little sister
You are very smart
I am not so sure you know this
But I look up to you
I love how you love Jesus
and think of Him in all you do
Please be who God made you to be
feisty, caring, and thoughtful
And while you're at it, remember this
I love you more than possible.

the moon and the stars

To the moon must I reach
And less than perfection
is unheard of
Good counsel must I seek
But to succeed completely
alone is worthy
The weight I know I bear?
That needs to remain
my little secret
The chaos surrounding,
Well that just needs
to be sorted through
The many tears I shed,
They need to be dried quickly
and covered...
My child,
Who has impressed this
upon you?
Who has given this stress
I never intended?
Who told you that it is good
to journey alone?
Why will you not share
your burden with Me?
Why did you let the chaos
over come you
When daily I offer you peace?
Who blotted from your memory
the shoulder I offer you to cry on?
And my child,
Why to them did you listen?

Faithful in December

December is when it happened
It's when my world came down crashing
It is when the persistent pain
came and decided to stay
December is when she died
and cold and frost took over
It is when white covers all the colors
and lights are used to bring back joy

December is when I cried for hours
and sat in utter silence
It's when I was at a loss for words
and felt completely hopeless
But now it is April
when there is life and fresh air and colors
And April is when I realized
That You were still faithful
in December.

You let the lights
bring back the joy
and You're the One who
made the snow sparkle
You were there for me
when I sat in utter silence
And You held me
when I felt all alone

even in December

Annie

She is a six-year-old bundle of joy
and is absolutely precious
she has blonde hair, blue eyes, and
a beautiful toothless grin
she has a laugh to make every
song bird jealous
and a personality
that really could melt a heart of
stone.
she has the touch of an angel
and a peace about her that could
calm any storm and end any war
She has the wisdom of a monarch
and the sensibility of one well beyond
her years.
She also has cancer
and a story that could bring
a calloused man to tears
She has scars from sixteen surgeries
and enough pain-filled moments
to literally fill books
Her life will never be normal
and her body will never be healed
she will never get those organs back
nor the years where she should have
been a small child.
It seems that life has given her
a death sentence,
a punishment for being almost perfect
But God is still holding her fragile life
And she knows that He
is not finished with her yet
He gave her the boldness of a warrior
and the courage of a martyr
and He won't leave her side
as she now faces the biggest struggle
of her life
a journey that will
give her another opportunity
to be every doctors'
favorite patient.

You Who Call me Beautiful

That day I felt worthless
That day I felt used
That day I felt ugly
Knowing all this was untrue
I felt despised, manipulated
unloved
I heard the lies encircling
my head
And I almost let him win
that battle
I almost gave him a
victory

But then I heart Your Voice
You who call me Beautiful
You, the definition of Beauty
Who created me in Your image
You broke through the lies
lies, wrapped about my heart
like old cast iron chains
With a still small voice
saying "I know your beauty
because I created it
I gave it to you
and don't give anyone
the power
to take it away."
Now I know my beauty
because He made me that way
and I strive to reflect His image
And I won't let anyone
take that away.

How Jesus Says I Love You

How Jesus says I love you
is good enough for me
how he wore that crown of thorns
and went to Calvary
how he created the sunset
and beauty for my eyes to see
how he shows me my path
and holds me steadily
how he gave me friends to love
and my precious family
that's how Jesus says I love you
and it's good enough for me

Is it wrong?

I want to hear you
say I love you
I don't want to
just assume
I want to see it
in your eyes
And feel it
through your skin
I want to
know for sure
I want to
feel secure
I want to feel free
to say I love you in return