Bubble of Pain

There is this bubble growing in me
It is rising, swelling, ready to burst
it is a bubble of pain
I can feel it rising in my throat,
in my chest
hiding behind my eyes
growing
How to shrink it so it won't pop?
How to make it go away?
Soon please, soon
pain, please
be gone

Learning the Hard Way

I'm learning to smile through the pain
I'm learning that He can wash away the stain
I'm learning that He can carry us all
And His love is there to break my fall
I'm not strong enough to take the blame
And try to hold the world's pain
It's not my place to be filled with sorrow
Because millions will not eat tomorrow
I can love them and for them pray
But that should not take my joy away
That joy is a gift He gives me
And that gift was very costly
I have no right to reject it
Just to try to make myself feel worth it
He loves me and that's enough
Even though this life is rough
To make me smile when I'm sad
And I have another reason to be glad
People will rarely seek out pain
And there is something real to gain
When they find and fall in love
With my glorious God above
Why would they want to follow His road
If they thought they'd get a larger load
And be crushed under the weight
Of the sorrow of some people's fate?
God is strong enough to hold it for them
And I'm not needed to butt in
And feel guilty for how I live
And for what God has chosen to give
He loves me and that I know
Now I hope that that will show
So this is all I've learned today
How to smile when the sky is gray.